In November, I was diagnosed with bipolar, or I should say misdiagnosed. These have been some of the most trying times since my breakdown seven years ago, but through it all, I have established an amazing network of people, who are there to support and love me. I'm telling this story in order to bring awareness, for those suffering from depression to know that there is help, and to not loose hope.
Life is hard when you feel defeated, worthless, hopeless, and distraught, to the point where you just want to give up, but let me tell you that tomorrow is another day, a day full of hope and new beginnings. There are so many things in this life that are worth fighting for, but the one thing you need to remember is that giving up is not an option. You keep fighting, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how low you go, how dark your life seems, get up, and fight!
Joshua 1:9
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
We are constantly wrestling with our emotions, especially when we're depressed, it seems that whenever I feel distant from Christ, try to make my own way in this world, that Satan takes a hold of me, brings me down, and makes me weary and full of despair. I am so fortunate to have friends that are encouraging, and remind me to stay on a righteous path. Last week for example, as I was leaving my doctor's office in turmoil, my friend Tatiana is my Pastor's wife, she said, we're here for you always, not just on Sunday's, go to the church and speak to the Pastor. I followed her advice and met with Pastor Noel, and Pastor Jaques, who counselled and prayed with me. Life gets busy, and sometimes, even those with the best intentions, get distracted. I have gained my strengths through fellowship, and learning to listen to the voice of God. Since seeing my pastor's, I have read the scripture daily.
